raining...hard on me...
Thursday, May 31, 2007
sometimes i think that i might be too much.. its how i felt after today.. i thought it was just a random "for fun" thing, but it turn out to be a little ugly, sak was a little pissed with my actions and words and i guess he was really angry, i think its time for me to know my limits too... i realise that i might have been too much... sorry sakq.
well.. went to IJC band performance.. thought that we could hear Hilmi clearly but really bad, he was in 2nd flute.. sad for you Hilmi!!!! anyway, Hilmi, ALL THE WAY!!!!! I LOVE HILMI!!! YOU ROCK!! gold fish conductor was there.. haha, as usual i was captivated by him!! by how he conduct! DAMN FUNNY!!! alright, so was there not to support MI or IJC but only to support hilmi!!!
while blogging this, im still talking to Fang Min.. she gave me her photo and told me if i missed her, i could look at it and stop missing her, but how can that be?? i need your flesh! sounds like a carnivore.. then i gave Fang Min my photos and guess wad?? she thinks that my kindergarden photo is damn cute!! haha.. so im going to give her one of it to let her keep!! smiles, im going back to talk to her, dun let her wait too long... might blog tomorrow.. tataz
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
too tired to blog, but just want to remind myself that i feel really sad when its raining at the bustop and when im all alone
Monday, May 28, 2007
perhaps its not that sad today after all... physics lesson was darn boring can!!! 5 teachers all fighting to speak, like so retarded man.. as usual we went to I.R.C to play DOTA.. well.. those were quite fun and at least i had fun today.. while leaving for china town to meet my lao ma, fang min called and said she saw us.. well... she said she really miss me and i do miss her too... her big brown eyes and the hair!! haha, miss it all... fang min called soon after i stepped onto Boon Keng ground. she was complaining to me that sakq was bullying her... Sakq!! you die!!! fang min, you be my guardian angel or i be your guardian angel??? i need one now leh... or you need one too??? we be each other's guardian angel want??? haha... fang min invited me to go to sentosa to farisha's chalet.. so want to spend some overnight hours there with fangmin.. knowing that fang min sure needs someone to speak to and i hope i'd be of GREAT help to her!!! friday, i look forward. i want my sexy tanned skin!!! face with my sunglasses print!!! haha..
there is science marathon tomorrow again!! but tomorrow only starts at 9!!! horray to more sleep!!! sleep sleep!!! must sleep more!!!
Sunday, May 27, 2007
i realise one thing, i've got a lot of friends who really loves me.. for example, HAFIZ!! he told me that he saw this big sized guy, and when he saw him, he thought of me first. well.. im sure he really misses me..
many friends think that i im someone without any trouble and can actually fight life without and difficulty, but they have mistaken the person for a monster. actually im not wad they think. i have lots of trouble and its just that i dun show it.. i only want to make myself happy and sometimes, i realise that im actually cheating myself. why? i bottle up off these problems and hope that my fermenting it, it would all disappear? no way that is going to happen. i ask shirley whether she believes that i have not forgotten wad had happened last year and she believes. its true that time can heal all wounds but never make a scar disappear. that's life, be it, and love it, if not, hate it and die. why do i do so much? all for one answer in life, just for my goals..
Saturday, May 26, 2007
guess wad, i finally came back to doing up a blog. its been some time since i did a blog.. now i know that no one might find this blog and hoping that no one wil defame me.... im in a lost of words.. guess this blog would be like the same usual one, that SAD BLOG