raining...hard on me...
Friday, June 29, 2007
What Hurts The Most
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still HarderGetting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have
not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to doOoohhh....
here's a new songs that i really like, and i wonder, why are lyrics to true??? wad hurts the most, is when both are close, so close and painful, there is a contrary there, shouldnt people who are close to be happy and all, i think its really different for me, wad really hurts the most, its being close...
Thursday, June 21, 2007
i found the dream shoe that i want!! omg! its damn pretty, damn nice and SWEET!!! omg. i regret that i didnt take a photo of it, i regret that i didnt save money for it, i regret that i didnt buy it!
Labels: regrets
Monday, June 18, 2007
http://www.metacafe.com/watch/647208/amazing_six_year_old_singer/ She's not only adorable - but dead on! Watch this amazing 6 year old sing Somewhere Over the Rainbow PERFECTLY on Britain's Got Talent. Even Simon was impressed! WOW. check this out! (:totally incredible..the pure innocence of a child's voice, cant help to be touched. (: she is connie!!
ain't gonna stay up til very very late today, i will just stay until 1 am and go to sleep and re ready to go to CMPB for my health Check Up.. pray hard, pess B!! BP also can! well.. im a little tennis crazy these days man, strokes are the thing that im REALLY in now, killer balls! Amy dun like it! hahaa well, al of us train strokes during play, so, im sorry, you really need understand that play tennis for practising my strokes! ya! haha TENNIS FANATIC!!!!! i invented a new word, tilya! haha meaning, till then.. so tilya everyone!
Labels: connie, tilya
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Forget thou shall not.
first before i start anything, thank you drunken sailor, i really wonder if you are someone close to me, really, i would like to thank you personally! do let me know who you are though msn? its
long_chlorine@hotmail.com.
There you'll be by Faith Hill
When I think back on these times,
And the dreams we left behind,
I'll be glad cause I was blessed to get,
To have you in my life,
When I look back on these days,
I look and see your face,
You were right there for me.
Bridge:
In my dreams I've always seen you soar above the sky,
In my heart there'll always be a place for you, For all my life,
Chorus:
I'll keep a part of you with me,
And everywhere I am there you'll be,
and everywhere I am there you'll be,
Well you showed me how it feels,
To feel the sky within my reach,
And I always will remember all,
The strength you gave to me,
Your love made me make it through,
Ohh I owe so much to you,
You were right there for me.
Bridge:
In my dreams I've always seen you soar above the sky,
In my heart there'll always be a place for you, For all my life,
Chorus:
I'll keep a part of you with me,
And everywhere I am there you'll be,
Cause I always saw you in my life, my strength,
And I wanna thank you now for all the ways,
You were right there for me, you were right there for me
Always!!
Bridge:
In my dreams I've always seen you soar above the sky,
In my heart there'll always be a place for you, For all my life,
Chorus:
I'll keep a part of you with me,
And everywhere I am there you'll be,
And everywhere I am there you'll be,
There You'll Be
A song from Pearl Harb0r, which is one of my obsession now, went looking for it high and low in Vivo and when i found it, i was so delighted because its only $10!! good buy man! but the soundtrack cost $30!! crazy $20 difference!! btw, anyone who thinks they might want to get Leong something for birthday present other than Rubin, you can get me the Pearl Harbor Soundtrack which is $30!! HMV! for Rubin, i think i want something for personal from her, hahaha, waaa i think im damn demanding! haha, but wadever she gives me i'll be glad to receive it! just like my last year birthday present she gave me a candle! haha, its something that i'll keep for life until the day that i think i miss her too much until the unbearable stage, i'll burn it so that her soul would be with me, omg, i think i sound like a pervert, but you know wad i mean la.
i realise another "C" name!! its Connie! another nice song, Samantha Cole, Without You
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
i write this post because i want to know whether true love exist. the persue of knowledge is just so great in me, but yet, i cant get any. all these true love in the lovies are just so touching, but can it really happen to me? pearl harbor, pirates, love their sound track, all by hans zimmer. superbly nice! i want to get their soundtrack! there is this some by samantha cole, with you. it really touches me! OST all the way!!!
ohhh i remember one thing that i want to post, its about wad im going to name my children!! here are some examples, dun mind if anyone who chances upon this entry, feel free to give me names that start with the letter "C"!, there is Colin, Coline, Chloe, Ceson, Celizabeth, Cole(but i dun really like that name), Cindy, Candice, Candy, Chermaine, Charmaine, Carrie, Celine, Chlorine, and i cant think of any more, please help me!! btw, Celizabeth is a name that i created for myself..its pronounce as say-lizabeth!!! help me!!! THANKE!!!
Labels: CELIZABETH
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
its a 19 year curse and its broken, and by alcohol! wahaha drink, drank and drunk! thats me!
i decided to keep away from it and go back to the way it was. i made a mistake, i feel guilty, pardon me, i'll repent.
Shirley quotes:
LOVE is always patient & kind. It is never jealous. LOVE is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. LOVE takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth.It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes...
thanks!!
Labels: curse, LOVE, mistake
Sunday, June 10, 2007
its the same feeling year after year. i had never break the curse. it shall be like this always, i am willing to face it with all my might. i feels as though that i have something haunting me since the day i was born. i could remember, a day during my primary school days, i was crying on the day 11th June, for wad? for no one remembering the day i was born. i was crying, for no one cared. i was crying for no one was next to me, i was all alone to talk to myself. during secondary school days, i was sad, i didn't have anyone to go out with, i asked my friends whether they are free, no one was there for me. i had to tell myself that the day i was born is just another miserable day. i remember last year, claris had organised a birthday BBQ for me. and i greatly appreciated it. but it was on the 10th june, the last year of today, 364 days ago. on the 11th June 2006, i was alone at home, thinking of my ex. thinking that someone would have been beside me if we hadn't broken up. i was expecting a message at least from you, but in the end, the clock struck 12 and i had nothing from you. i was thinking of who might be with me a year later, that is tomorrow and never had i expected that the closest people around are not those that would be with me. i had knew that this day is cursed and i know it right. i will never expect anythings from you, and i would never expect that i would be happy on that day. i live with a haunting in me, for the rest of my life.
Labels: curse
its 10th June.
i never looked forward to the next day.
for 18 years it has been cursed.
never something good happen.
so sad - sorrow, anxiety, depressed.
i'll thank you for any change,
but please spare me the end.
always have i wanted,
never will i get.
walk backwards, erase these pain.
Friday, June 8, 2007
i think all about today's
MIAKE's farewell, i think the most personal thing is this, Shirley, dun mind i type it out, i know you have a soft copy of it, buy until you come back from
Macau(AW MEN) i think the sun has already set 3 times
le. so here it goes
TO: THE ONE & ONLY FUN-LOVING
LEONG:)
HEY
LEONG! :) Although you didn't join us earlier this year, I really enjoyed those moments with you around. I'm really glad that I've got the chance to now you, and also to know you even more and better regardless of whether its during
ake time, or out of
ake time. :) all that you have gave, the warmth from your hands before out
SYF, to the sharing of heartbeat when i was crying endlessly after we returned back to school, to the talks that we had over
MSN, I'll never forget them. :) it has been really quick and short five to six month since i first got to
know you better, and i really did enjoy your companion regardless of where and when,:) Thank You
Leong, for all the wonderful moments and beautiful memories you've given me, and the endless encouragement & confidence you gave me during the
SYF period. :) and also not forgetting, those happy and hilarious moments that you &
Kiat have both gave me and the rest of
ake, and of course, my friends. :) i really had a great time with I'm with you, i never fail not to smile or had my best bit of laughter after spending time with you &
kiat. :) you guys are just real cool happy pills. :)
Leong,
no matter what
happen from now till in future,
I'll always be here with you and to support you in
everyway. in any case you need a bin to spew all your unhappiness, worries or doubts, or you just need someone to talk to, or listen to you speak
your mind,
I'm available ya? feel free to buzz me on
MSN, or even text me.
I'll definitely fly to your rescue. :)
Always think positive, love yourself more and never fail to
believe that all going to be
ok. :) keep going in life, and
I'm sure you can do it. :) GO
LEONG! More wonders are ahead, so
don't think too much, keep going ya? :) I wish for your endless happiness & LOVE in life, and may everything be smooth sailing for you. :) LUCKS FOR THE BIG As, and must take real good care of yourself
ok? LOVES. :)
Loads of LOVES,
SHIRLEY
there, here you go, that was from
shirley... so sweet right??
loland i got a card and cookies from 3 year ones, here its
Happy Farewell '07
(
tigger sticker)
Dear 2007 yr 3 senior
thanks for all your effort in
AKE! :)
alt eh
Best for
Alevels!
From:
Fanndly,
kelly, Ming
huithey are really nice man... and the home made cookies!! NICE!!! i got 2!!!
hahai also have a cert!!
CERTIFICATE OF APPRECIATION
This certificate is awarded to
YEH CHUEN LEONGin appreciation for the services
rendered to the
Anklung KulintangEmsemble. Our sincere gratitude is
extended to you this 8
th June 2007.
Signed by Mr Pow
Tien Min
Jaron, Ms Wee
Liang Ping and Ms
Lim Jiu Er Eileen
NICE???
haha, i got a collar pin too!!!
Labels: THE ONE AND ONLY FUN-LOVING LEONG
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
the past 3 days was really bad bad bad.. but Shirley!! i've passed this 3 days~~ well.. i just went to see Fang Min's blog and i realise that she is not coming online until school starts!! omg!! how am i going to survive this without my guardian angel close to me.. really sad man.. shirley!!HELP ME!!!!
Labels: Guardian Angel
Monday, June 4, 2007
its so late at night and its when i finished spoken to shirley.. i was having mixed feeling.. well.. she said many things to leave me to ponder like how is it that all this can happen where is is just human nature of the desire. she told me that she was going off to macau for a holiday with ehr family and would be back on the 11th.. she said that she had requested to her parents to come back early just because she want to wish me on the day! like she didnt have to. i thought it was just coincidental but it was half true only.. anyways, i decided to take a 3 days off and dun care less about myself. and when after the 3 days, i'd sure know the answer.. btw one day have passed... good night everybody! GUARDIAN ANGEL MICHELLE AKA FANGMIN!! LEONG MISSES YOU BADLY!!!!!!!!
Labels: coincidental, Guardian Angel
Sunday, June 3, 2007
i keep waking up today from my naps and felt something was wrong.. something was missing from around me and i felt lost. and i found out that you are not there, the place where i see you always... i miss you badly..
Labels: lost
i realise taht somethings that i thought that i can write in this blog, is too sensitive to be in here. i shall post it in my diary, hand written diary.
Friday, June 1, 2007
i was talking to chengze and the conversation suddenly made me think of my DAD.. a sudden gush of tears came up my throat and to my eyes.. i held it and thought, be strong.. live on!!
Labels: dad
i realise some things.. i call this a sad blog, but it seems like till today the post that i created are not sad at all... well... i'll just think of the long run and see how? if i really feel more and more happy i'll change the inro paragraph..
yesterday, 31st may 2007.. it was grandma mary's birthday.. so my family went down to orchid country club for a lunch session with grandma.. view was great and everything was nice except the relatives part.. seriously i dun like them at all... one by one surface out to be bad people.. lets talk about them one by one, there was 3rd auntie's family sitting in the same table as my family was. she was alright but her children or rather my cousins, were like crap.. chilli is my number one love, and i asked for chilli from the waitress and its obvious that it belongs to me.. from wad i heard from my sister, they were actually whispering about me taking the chilli all for myself... think about themselves too man.. they occupy the nuts before the lunch even started, did we say anything? like crap la... now to the next family, there was auntie doreen, this is not that bad la, she was actually like talking to my mum about going to army stuff and she said that if i get into the "scorpion" company, i would be really free!! but the whole point of me going into the army is to protect the nation(why do i sound so patriotic now?). ok.. so the whole point of it is that she thinks that im not capable of suffering hardship and train hard.. so, i'd prove you all wrong! i'll be strong and fit!!!!
well.. everything ended like at 3.15 or so, cant wait not to see their faces.. and sister gave me these tickets to watch any movie in shaw, i could think of anyone else so i asked Fang Min whether she ould be interested to go with me, and HOORAY!!! she was also bored to stay with her relatives because they were all boys.. so actually i was really lucky to have her out with me!! so we used the vouchers and watched shrek 3!!! so it was really a hilarious show, really different.. be sure to catch it.. in the meantime we got ourselves free popcorn, free pepsi and free hot dog!! wahaha, all free!! so cool right! well, we cut queues, we got really good seats to watch Shrek, and camwhore!!! haha every where can!
then after everything, i thought of bring Fang Min to have Hagen Dazz, but the outlet at the marriot hotel is no longer there. so, no icecream.. so walk walk arounf prchard and until it was like 8.30, we left for clark quey to meet up with jenna.. they would want to go to valvet dragon.. so, ya.. acutally didnt really wanted to go but, thought of accompanying Fang Min to where they needed to go because they were so lost of where that place was. walk, walk, river, cross bridge, cross road and finally we found the place!! well.. when places dark at night, i really cant have my direction for nuts man.. but in the end, some taxi uncle helped and finally we were at valvet dragon and guess who i saw??? old buddy chengze!!!!! he was there for one of his business and wow!! i didnt know that i was so lucky to see him there, it felt to homely so have a friend at such a place!! wow wow wow!!! chengze gave us the free tickets to get in the club but in the end, i cannot go inside because of my old old habit.. i was in berms!! well well... so still, i didnt get into a club so, my first is still reserved, but i thought that even if my first was with Fang Min, i would sure be happy to be there with her!!
so i left and went home, took me some time to find my way to the bus stop but i felt great havinf to walk that much!!! hooray!! and when i got home, i really felt enpty when i have no Fang Min to talk to on MSN!!! MISS HER CAN!$@#*!!
its going to rain now.. i pray hard that it would go away!! miss you Fang Min!!! My Guardian angel will look over you!!! talk good care of your knee ok!!! more telepathy on 31st may 2007, 15:10
Labels: camwhore, Fang Min, Freebies, Shrek 3, telepathy