raining...hard on me...
Saturday, September 12, 2009
since no one reads my blog anymore, why not i be frank and just type out everything?
i just ransacked my room and finally found the dvd that Sann made for Rubin before she left to go to Australia to study. the feeling of watching it was exactly the same as the time Sann showed to me just after Rubin left. i am so in love with you, Rubin. life has been really hard for me when you have left Singapore. everyday i wake up, thinking of the woman that i love so much and know that she is so far away. i couldn't do anything but just keep all this to myself. just when i watched the DVD that Sann made for you, i was filled with joy and tears just roll down my cheeks when i was watching it. i have never missed anyone so much in my life and it was you, Rubin, the special someone that i know that i can see my future in you, sharing joyous moments with each other and you are this very special person in me. i assure that this is not other kind of love but its the genuine love that i have for you. everything that i do, i thought of you. you are a big part of my life and i really dunno wad to do with my life without you. you are my everything, my world. no other words can describe the affection for you other than "i love you". i will wait for you to be back and i will always dream of you everyday, being my girlfriend, my wife, my best friend.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
i thought for a while, is the fire really that small that a small gust of wind can blow it off or its a wild fire that needs more firewood to keep burning?? no one has an answer for me, because the fire is burning in me.........